Happiness

 Forcing yourself on someone or something will never be the answer to your own happiness. You have to be content and happy with who you are first in order to understand what real happiness feels like for you. Often times we try to find happiness in the people around us or the things we do that keep us side-tracked, but it’s imperative that we take a step back and ask ourselves, “Am I really happy? Or do I allow myself to be distracted with people and things?”. It’s important to remember that pure happiness comes from within, once you understand this, your happiness and your joy can never be taken from you, nor will you have to force your happiness or look for it in others. With that being said, are you happy or just distracted? 

The Art of Healing

When you are in the process of healing, no matter what form of healing, it is important for you to take time to yourself. During the healing process is where your lesson lies, if you miss your lesson whatever you went through would have taught you nothing. The majority of the time the lessons we face are keys that open up future doors for us, the lesson of today will be the key for tomorrow's success, but if we never take the time to heal so that we can actually learn the lesson, the doors that we want open, either won’t open at all or they’ll only open for a small period of time. In order for us to have continued success we must continuously do the work and simultaneously work on ourselves as we develop. Our bodies have already adapted to healing, if you cut yourself your body will automatically heal itself, but our minds are not set up that way, we have to initiate the healing process ourselves, if we don’t the wound will spread to other areas of our lives and begin to take over. No one can teach you how to heal, it's a process that is unique for each and every individual, but it's also a process that you have to unlock while you take time to yourself. It's never too late to heal from past traumas or circumstances that you have faced, but now that you are aware of the art of healing, never put it off for anything else because your blessings lie on the other side of healing.

You are everything

As long as you’re working with time, time will never work against you. When you start to look at life this way you’ll become less questionable of why some things don’t work out and why some things do. As long as you’re progressing and constantly learning from the lessons of your past you’ll never fail in life, instead you’ll be preparing for your destiny. The failures and the many other outcomes you may face throughout life are preparing you for something that is and will always be meant for you. The only thing that can ever stop you from receiving what’s meant for you is you. In this case you have to trust yourself enough to know that you will be able to continuously do the work and that you’ll never give up yourself. After all you are your greatest asset, the more you believe in yourself the more you’ll start to see that failure was never in the plans for you, but was preparation in disguise. 

THE INDIVIDUAL

Everyone’s path isn’t the same, so don’t look for the “answers” in others, but look for guidance and reasoning from those whom you trust. Don’t be influenced, but be inspired by others. Too often we see others “succeeding” or  “happy” and we make ourselves believe that that success or that happiness is ideal, when 10 times out of 10 they took a different path than you did. Somewhere along the line we forgot about the “individual” and become more in-tune with the “influencer” and it seems as though we are straying further and further away from the individual. I just want to remind you that there is creativity, originality, and most importantly boundless wisdom in your own path, please don’t forget that your steps are supposed to be different for a reason. No one person is like you, you are unique for a reason, embrace your individuality. 

LOST & FOUND

I found love in the midst of finding myself. 

I found happiness in the midst of gaining mental wealth. The kind of wealth that last through generations, the kind that doesn’t fold nor is imitation. 

The kind that I’ll be able to pass onto my kids without limitations. 

I found stableness in the midst of moving around, I realized that what holds me up isn’t the ground, but the sureness in myself that I have found. 

It’s the thoughts that run through my head, it’s also the words by others that are left unsaid. 

I found that what I think of myself is what’s the most important and the genuine connections I’ve made without forcing it. It’s the loved ones that I keep around, the ones that see no other choice but to hold me down.

In the midst of finding myself, I found love. The love that I always needed, love that was so strong that it was there for me all along. 

I just had to find myself so that I could see, that LOVE had always been apart of my destiny. 

LIFE AFTER SELF

The road to self discovery, self acceptance and self love is very lonely, so lonely that you may begin to get used to the feeling of being alone. One may begin to feel comfort in being alone which is why I believe that this is one of the hardest phases to get out of after discovering yourself, it’s hard to get back into the groove of allowing other people and things into your life. At the same time, it is important that you do allow people and things back into your life after you’ve discovered who you are because 9 times out of 10 they are meant for you, they are either your blessings after your long road of self discovery or your testaments to know that you’ve truly discovered who you are. Either way it goes, it is pivotal that you allow and accept love, help and compassion from others after taking time to yourself instead of being closed off and stuck in “self mode”. It is okay to be open, it is okay to allow others to love you, and it is okay to allow others to get to know you. You never know what your impact is on someone else’s life, sometimes you may be their inspiration or motivation to discover themselves, if you stay closed off you’ll only defeat the purpose of self discovery. Share your knowledge, share your truths and share your self love so that others may be able learn from you and discover themselves too. 

RESET.

Take time when it’s needed and even when it’s not needed. Your mind and body communicate with you on many levels. The difference between the two is that your body will eventually shut down on its own if it is drained, but the mind will run rampant as long as you allow it to. This is why it’s important to be in tune with your mind and your spirit, you have to know yourself enough to know when it’s time to allow yourself to breathe, reflect and reset. Often times we clog our minds with all the unnecessary things we retain over time and never allow it time to reset so that we can make room for new information. Just like our bodies get rid of waste and impurities involuntarily, we have voluntarily to do the same with our minds. Your mind is your strongest asset, treat it like you would treat your body. Your physical look is definitely the first impression, but your mind is what allows people to be intrigued by you, it keeps the attention. It is up to you to treat it right. 

MIND SET.

I choose to keep my life a mystery because I know it’ll be more accurate when I tell people about MY history. 

I choose to keep myself grounded instead of afloat, I never found comfort in basing my life on “hope”. 

I choose to move in silence because silence has always been the best noise to me.

I choose to express myself when I feel emotions because it allows me to understand me. 

I choose to remove myself from things and people without remorse because i know that in the end I’ll be the only one who took this course. 

I choose to love hard because love doesn’t come easy, I never understood how people could just love “freely”. 

I choose the people I associate with carefully because I know that energy is something that should be given sparingly.

In the end, I chose you because with all the things I choose you still find a way to choose me, while still choosing you too. 

Attachment

Ever since we were young we were taught attachment; we were attached to our parents, our favorite stuffed animals, our favorite foods, etc. We were never taught to let go of things/people and I believe the reason for that is because life is supposed to teach you those lessons. As you move throughout your life you will come across certain things or people that are attachments to lessons, meaning they are placed in your life in order to learn from experiencing these things/people. They draw you in with such high demand that your focus and interests are invested in them so much that you begin to become attached to them without even knowing it. The problem with this is that, attachments can easily turn into distractions without proper knowledge of why you are attached. With that being said, I want to encourage you to pay attention to your “attachments” and take time to figure out why you are so attached, why these things/people have your interest, when you do this you’ll be able to learn more about yourself and whether your attaching onto things/people for the benefit of becoming wiser or if they are really benefitting and pouring into you as a person. You’ll know if it is healthy for you if you can walk away from the attachment and still feel the same when you decide to come back to. You will never gain independence of the mind if you’re attached to things/people that don’t serve you well, you’ll never be able to fully think and act for yourself. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

Get to know me and not my body. 

My body is only the vessel for my heart and without my soul activated it won’t even start. 

My heart and soul are in control of where my feelings go. No matter how hard you try to get deep in my insides it’s still my heart and soul that keeps me in drive. 

No Climax or orgasm can keep me hooked, but a man that feeds my soul will have me shook. 

Because someone like that is hard to find and I’m almost sure that he’d be sublime. 

From that moment on I’d belong to him, surrendering every part of me without a murmur or a hymn. 

Listening to every word he’d say and giving him much more than 4 play. 

He’d deserve more than what my body could offer, so I’d unlock the depths of my soul so he could assume his role. King of all kings, and most importantly, ruler of my mind, body, and soul. 

Reflection vs. Validation

The true self requires reflection from those who are around them. When you have meaningful and fulfilling relationships they become a reflection of who you are and you become secure in them. When you don’t have these types of relationships you will often try to seek self validation in some form from those around you. This is where insecurity in ones self comes into play. I don’t believe that insecurity comes from within, we weren’t born to seek validation from others, I believe that insecurity comes from the judgment and ill intentions from those around us and due to the fact that we are all emotional beings, we can feel when things are off for the most part. The feeling of being insecure comes from our surroundings, the things we look at the most, the people we tend to gravitate to, and what we have taught ourselves to believe is valid. I think the problem lies in the fact that we make the feeling of insecurity more about ourselves rather than the people around us or what we have convinced ourselves to believe is true. When you feel insecure instead of trying to change something about yourself try to change your surroundings, evaluate your close relationships as well as your beliefs and motivations at the moment. We were born whole already, it is up to us to continue to be whole and build whole relationships so that the cycle of being whole will continue. You are more than enough, but it is up to you to believe it so that others can see it. 

The Unknown

A foolish man is afraid of the unknown, while a wise man steps into the unknown to discover more about themselves. Without the unknown there is no self discovery or growth, as people we don’t grow from the things we know, we grow because we continue to learn new things and we continue to move forward in life. The unknown is only scary when we don’t know or trust ourselves. But one should know that self discovery is prominent in times where we don’t know the possible outcome of things but we continue anyway because we have enough confidence in ourselves to get through whatever it is. The unknown isn’t scary, it’s just that we have gotten into the mindset that safe is better and fear is comforting. So we have shielded ourselves from true self discovery because we have found comfort as well as peace in our routines and emotional patterns. By doing this you become stagnant and stunt your growth, you might know some parts of yourself, but in your comfort you’ll fail to realize that it takes a whole lifetime to truly discover yourself. You are a multifaceted soul, you have many layers and many things to discover about yourself. Your road to self discovery is a path that no one else has taken before, step into it with a confident mindset, you shouldn’t be afraid to meet the person on the other side. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

It’s 2020 and my vision is getting clearer, I don’t wanna say that I’m superior but I feel like I was made for times like this, like it’s apart of my interior. 

My focus is so on point that I couldn’t even blur it if I smoked 100 joints.

See I was made for times like this, times where people can see pass the bullshit. Times where people can distinguish the fake from the real, it’s crazy I feel like it’s all apart of my grand reveal. 

Like this was God’s plan, like me and him have been walking hand-in-hand. I can’t lie, sometimes I feel bad because in a world where everyone is surviving it seems like I’m steadily thriving.

Only getting better and that’s guaranteed like the change of the weather. 

Gratitude

It takes a lot of time and patience to learn how to be grateful. As people we are so used to being focused on the things we don’t have that we tend to lose sight of the things that we already possess. Which is not wrong, it’s apart of the learning process to work for the things you want but what is wrong is to solely focus on those things. When you are solely focused on the things you don’t have you’re only teaching yourself the negative ways of life, such as; being greedy, being envious of those who already have what you want, or being so lustful that you tend to fulfill your desires with anyone just to get what you want. In order to learn some of the positive ways of life you have to have a healthy balance and being grateful teaches you that. There’s a certain high everyone feels when they achieve something, it is important to avoid getting addicted to this feeling but to adapt to it by taking time to be grateful for what you have achieved before moving on to achieve something new. When you learn gratitude you learn to appreciate the things you have more than focusing on the things you don’t have. You’ll begin to understand that taking time to be grateful is beneficial because it’ll reveal the things that you possess that genuinely bring positivity into your life and the things that you have achieved along the way out of greed, lust or envy. If the positive outweighs the negative then you’re on the right path in life, but if the negative outweighs the positive then you should take time to re-evaluate the things you’re truly grateful for and channel that energy into your life.  

TWISTED THOUGHTS

Frustrated with trying to fit in because when I stand out people only ask for hand outs. Can I get this or can I have that but they never wanna understand the track. 

The track that lead me here and what I had to do to over come my fears.

They just want the ending without the beginning. No wonder I don’t fit in, hard work is all I’m giving. 

These people don’t understand what that is, they understand short lived success so they can flex. They only wanna look their best and never wanna stress. 

But the stress is what made me and I appreciate it greatly. 

Even if I told them how to become successful they’d fold because it would be too stressful. So why waste my time? 

My hand outs would never help them so they should just stick with flexin. 

Who are you?

Who are you really? Without the degree, without the money, or without any other assets that you’ve obtained along the way, who can you really say you are. People as a whole flaunt the things and the status that society has given us and we boast about it as if it’s a trophy. This is intended for us to forget about the real trophies, the real gold in life is being a genuine person and being able to flaunt your personal assets that you’ve worked on. For example your patience that you’ve earned through your trials and tribulations, the honesty that you’ve picked up and carry proudly now because of all the years that you had to be fake just to get by, or the fact that you genuinely love your self and have finally accepted all of your flaws inside and out. There’s much more that can be added to the list, but the point that I’m trying to make is that those are the real things in life that make us who we are, not the money, not the material assets, or the social status you have. If you’re nothing without the add ons you were just a side to begin with, in order to add on to yourself you have to be whole, therefore these material things won’t help you, they’ll just weigh you down and distract you from the real goals in life. This week I encourage you to write down the things that make you who you are, if your list is full of material things, degrees that you’ve obtained and businesses included, then you need to work on YOU. You’re more than a piece of paper and you’re worth more than money. Knowing yourself is worth more than generational wealth, don’t let this society take that away from you. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

Constantly battling my inner self to try not to offend anyone else. But it seems like whatever I do ends up offending someone new. 

If I’m confident in myself, my mind, body and soul, they’ll say I’m too much too handle and try to dismantle. 

If I show too much skin they’ll end up saying I’m trying to get attention and if I don’t show enough they’ll try to say that I’m cuffed. 

Either way they’ll try to stomp on my parade with their judgmental opinion like they have more knowledge from the outside looking in.

Now a days we’re so used to women being insecure and only posting pictures to lure, but men like that, so she’ll get a pat on her back because they’ll know how to deal with that. 

Preying on her every weakness just to get her between the sheets and dip, but speaking badly on me because I can tell when a man is phony. 

I’m sorry if I offend you but my confidence speaks for itself, so fuck you and anyone else. I never needed your opinions I’m dope as fuck without the mentions. 

Pressure

Pressure either makes diamonds or burst pipes, either or there’s no way around pressure. Pressure shows us the paths that we are supposed to be on; sort of like a test to our faith, a test to our hearts and a test to our desires. In life you should be going after everything you truly desire because everything you desire, desires you back. Pressure only breaks us when we go after things that don’t desire us back. As people we show up for the things we want when put under pressure, if you want that degree you’ll study, if you really want that job you’ll show your ass off in the interview, if you  really want that person you’ll do whatever it takes to get them. You’ll never fold under pressure when it’s something that desires you back. What’s meant for you will always be meant for you and when you learn to truly believe that things will always work out in the favor of your true desires. I encourage everyone to pay attention to when they break under pressure, learn to understand what the test was trying to teach you about the path you’re on. Pressure is either meant to break you or mold you, either way it allows you to become who you are supposed to be. Trust it. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

My emotions hit like a waves, some days low but it’s high tide today. 

The thought of you fills my body with pain because I know I’ll never see you again. 

The memories of you fill my heart with joy and they’re the reason why I can cancel out all the noise. 

You would think after all these years it wouldn’t effect me like this but no one truly knows what it’s like to miss, it’s something that I can’t have back that why I stay on track. 

Because I know one day I’ll see you in the afterlife only if I play my cards on earth right. 

Which is why I do my due diligence and treat people with respect even if they never mention it. 

I know this life isn’t about me but sometimes it gets hard you see? 

Living in a world where people are so full of themselves and never care about the next persons health. 

So I’ll continue to treat people with love cause you taught me to leave this world better than it was. 

Think Before You Speak

“Life or death is in the power of the tongue”, meaning you can think all the negative and nasty things you want, but as soon as you speak them, they cannot be taken back. This is why it’s important to think before you speak and to always come from an honest place when you are speaking. Our emotions run wild when we are dealing with situations that allow them to take over and speak themselves, but you have to try to remember that your emotions don’t run you.  If you allow them to run you, you’ll be living a life of constant ups and downs, an emotional roller coaster. Spewing out hate, negativity, or cursing someone is never the answer, instead you should lead  with patience and a calm mind. Emotions are only for a moment, if you haven’t noticed they never last longer than the situation at hand. In the same manner that your body tells you to eat when you’re hungry, you have to tell your mind to chill when your emotions are starting to take over. If this a challenge for you, I encourage you not to speak, sometimes silence is the best response for yourself. The last word isn’t always the best word, keep it to yourself because most of the time you truly won’t mean what you say the next day. We aren’t young anymore, apologies don’t work like they used to, learn to control your words before they start to control you. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

The word “Love” gets tossed around so much you’d think it was a drug, sold on every corner at the highest price and the high ain’t even all that nice. 

See it’s been cut with all types of shit, and it seems like only fools can handle it. 

For me, I’ll settle for “Lust”, at least it comes with just a little bit of trust.

Trust for you to take my body to worlds that I never imagined and have me following all your commands as if you were the captain. 

There are no add ons or preservatives, so you know the high is pure and worth the hit. 

Now that high can’t be compared, because it shows up as what it is, fair and square. 

The quality of “Love” these days is cheap, so I’ll settle for “Lust” cause that shit ain’t made for the weak. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

Just because I’m comfortable in my solitude doesn’t mean I’m ignoring you or being rude. 

I just find time to myself more fulfilling than I find time with anyone else. Reciprocation is never a concern in my solitude and I find myself managing a consistent mood. 

The mood of me. the mood of free. The mood of reciprocative energy. 

I’m learning to give myself everything I want and learning that it’s okay to flaunt. 

So I will continue to boast about the love that I discovered instead of trying to keep it covered. 

I know to you it seem like I’m living carefree, but I’m taking the sacrifice so that others may discover self love for themselves through me. 

Autopilot

When you truly believe that whatever is meant for you will be for you, you won’t have to try to force anything in your life. By human nature we feel like we have to be in control of everything, but the soul knows that our life’s path has already been laid out for us and that it is up to us to allow it to come to fruition. When we fight or go off our divine courses we make life harder for ourselves to the point where we start to doubt our minds, doubt our wants and doubt our needs. The soul nor mind works well in the mentality of fear or doubt, and once we realize that fear and doubt are just mindsets and not our realities the path of life becomes less forced. When you get rid of fear your life’s choices don’t seem as scary and your mistakes turn into lessons learned instead of fear of making the same mistakes again. Your doubts turn into calculated risks instead of lack of trust for yourself and others. Once you get rid of the both the choices that you are supposed to make will stand out more than the ones that aren’t meant for you. The path of life you take depends on you, but fear nor doubt are in the path that is destined for you, choose wisely. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

A woman with so much depth can’t be checked, nor can she be kept. 

Every move she makes comes with a purpose so dealing with her will make life worth it. 

It seems as though she lives her life on the edge and that she barely thinks with her head. But it’s her heart that she follows even though she acts as if it’s hollow. 

Those that feel her can see beyond the real her, her passion speaks for itself and is worth way more than generational wealth. 

If it was up to her she’d share her knowledge with the world but she knows the world comes with envy and greed 

and a woman with so much depth is bound to have enemies. 

So she only shares herself with a select few, constantly opening up herself to them hoping that one day they’ll see life through her birds-eye view. 

In Due Time

There’s a common misconception that time waits for no man, but a wise man knows that time is just a figment of our imaginations and that we make time the variable that it is. What you do with yourself and how you think when you’re alone is the only time that matters. When you pay attention and focus on the things that better you as a person time seems nonexistent because your patience is participating with you and not working against you. We only believe that time is running out for us when we are either moving towards something that isn’t within our grasps or when we are anticipating things that are beyond our control. The point of the matter is is that, what you do with yourself is how much your time is worth to someone else, if you pour into yourself others will have no choice but to pour into you and vice versa. You’ll begin to notice what others do with their time without even having to spend time with them, the aura that you give off when you find yourself valuable cannot be missed by someone else who believes the same. It is up to us to make our time valuable so others can make it valuable as well, it all starts with you.

TRANSITIONING

Last day of being 24, last day of thinking I ever needed more. 

Last time I’ll second guess myself or think I need material wealth.

Everything I have is within me, no man, no amount of money will ever complete me. I am already whole and my mind is filled with goals. 

Goals that I will complete because I know it’s apart of my divine destiny. 

The first 24 was a learning lesson, even though there were hard times I’ll always look at it as a blessing. 

But I know there’s much more in store for 25, I know that these will be the best times of my life. 

I know myself better than I ever did before and that in itself is the greatest gift, I couldn’t ask God for more. 

Double-Edged Sword

Everything I write about deals with self because I believe that if you know how to treat yourself you’ll take on the habit of treating others the same, but emotions get in the way of this at times. If people have done us wrong, made us feel some type of way, or have taken us out of our character it becomes hard for the self to forget those actions placed upon us. Sometimes they will be impossible to forget, which is fine, but it is imperative that we forgive those who have wronged us knowingly or unknowingly, I say this because the built up anger, sorrow or neglect you feel may be playing a part in other areas of your life without you even knowing it. Most of the time we think we are strong enough to just move on from situations without a care, which sometimes we can, but after you’ve done that so many times something is bound to go wrong. You can still be strong and feel hurt, you can still be strong and release your emotions in a mature manner, you can still be strong and forgive those who have wronged you, because afterwards you’ll realize that it was all for the betterment of you. Sometimes we don’t notice it, but the wrongful acts conflicted on us become us if the cycle isn’t broken, and the only way to break the cycle is to deal with it head on. This week I challenge everyone to really think about their issues and where they’ve stemmed from, and to take it upon themselves to deal with them head, not everyone will say sorry to you for the things they’ve done to you, but it is up to you to forgive them with or without an apology. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

When two souls intertwine they pour into each other like fine wine.

Their bonds can never be matched, even if one leaves they’ll still be attached.  

Soul ties can never be broken, only shaken up by the words that are never spoken which leads to feelings of overbearing emotions. 

But the soul knows more than what you see or hear and doesn’t act from a place of fear. 

But you have to know your soul in order to make a tie, if you don’t, it will be hard for you to distinguish between the lies.

If its not a soul tie then I don’t want it, now a days people get in relationships just to flaunt it.  

Labeling themselves as “relationship goals” but never feeding into each others souls. 

Feeding into my soul is the only goal, I don’t want anyone who only feeds into my pockets because money folds. 

Solitude

Solitude teaches you more about yourself than you would think. Often times we are around several individuals with different energies than ours and before we know it our energies and vibes have collided to make one collective. If you aren’t fully aware of what is going on you’ll start to become dependent on that energy and do anything to be apart of it. Separation and solitude from people is necessary for the individual to thrive, you are not like everyone else, you energy isn’t like anyone else’s, nor is the way you think. As a collective, we have started to become dependent on other people’s energies and “vibes” as opposed to our own. I believe that several of us have lost ourselves and our destined paths in the midst of this. This week I want to challenge you to be in solitude; with yourself, thoughts and actions. You’ll find out who you really are and where you’re supposed to be when you actually enjoy yourself before you try to enjoy someone else.

TWISTED THOUGHTS

Fake love is a drug that the masses get addicted to. Fixated on physical features and curves that would make a man want to marry you. 

Never worried about what her soul looks like, only worried about what that ass and her throat feels like. 

I’m sorry if I’ve offended you with my brains as well as my physical features. But all that big dick shit is weak cause, 

a real woman wants a man as strong as his dick. Who can taste his soul without even taking a lick. Who can ride his vibrations without a battery, who doesn’t need attention or pumped up flattery. 

But fake love only recognizes fake love, if I ever seen you walking down the streetI wouldn’t even know who you was. 

Maintenance

The key to living a fruitful life is maintenance; whether that be maintaining healthy relationships, maintaining your spiritually or maintaining your finances, maintenance is always key. In the same way a farmer maintains and waters his crops we have to treat our lives, the people in our lives and our blessings in the same manner. Everything that we obtain should hold some sort value to us in order for us to maintain it properly. For a farmer he knows that he must maintain his crops in order to make his living, therefore he sees value in what he does so he will always appreciate and care for it no matter the circumstances. If at any point you realize that you cannot maintain something properly you must get rid of it in order to receive more. The fruits that we bear should be fruitful to us, when we start to notice that the fruits that we are bearing are becoming rotten over time we must get rid of the seeds and plant new ones. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

I keep my grass cut low because I know that’s where the snakes reside, but you showed up in a different form and bated me into a lie. 

I can respect the snakes because they show up as themself, but you showed up in a form of “help”. 

Letting all my guards down thinking that you would be sticking around, only to find out that you only do things for the clout. In the back of my mind I had my doubts, but my heart still wanted to feel you out. 

See my heart bears no judgement but my mind does, I’ll never be able to understand a person who lies just because. 

The scariest part of this world is knowing that there’s people who can morph into any form, a snake in disguise, wooing me with all its charm. 

But the snakes always reveal themselves because they have to shed their skin, which in turn sheds the form they were in. 

Now I see you for you and I can’t seem to blame you, if I was a snake I’d morph into anything to be next to me too. 

Wants vs. Needs

We as people tend to want a lot of things throughout our lives, whether they are things we know we can obtain or outlandish wants that we know we’ll never get in life. The problem with wanting things comes in to play where your “needs” are being overshadowed by your “wants”, your wants become your main focus and you forget who you are, which in turn leads you to forget about what you actually need. Your needs and your wants can manifest simultaneously, but if you don’t know yourself enough to know what you need in life you’ll only be manifesting your wants. When your wants are the only thing your trying to manifest, they become your sole focus in life and most the time our wants aren’t necessities to us because when we get them we don’t know how to handle them properly. If you haven’t noticed already, the things that we need in our life we handle with care because they are beneficial to us, we know their worth. 9 times out of 10 the things we want aren’t going to benefit us in our current lives so we wouldn’t be able to handle them with the care they need/deserve. Your wants can and will turn into your needs when you are ready to handle them with care, until then figure out what you need and value it, the more you learn about value and the things that are beneficial to you the more blessings you can take on. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

I don’t see my imperfections as flaws anymore, they’ve become my own perfections. When I stare at myself in the mirror I see a beautiful reflection... 

I see a woman who carries herself with all her might while still fighting off every battle in sight. Even with her war wounds she’s more than worthy, I think of her as “unique” because of the paths she took and her journey. 

She’s becoming her best self starting from the inside out, tweaking the things on the inside before she focuses on the out. 

Slowly stripping away from her flesh and solely focusing on her soul, showing other women that this is the only goal. Radiating like a beam of light, her beauty could blind everyone in site.

This mirror only shows what the eyes can see, but eyes will never be able to measure her inner beauty.

This mirror only shows the skin that protects my soul, the flaws are just a reminder that my insides are still as pure as gold. 

Concrete Thoughts

Stop second guessing yourself, your worth, your talents, and what you deserve. What you believe about yourself is the ONLY thing that matters, therefore if you’re constantly second guessing yourself then you have no concrete thoughts about what you deserve or your worth. This also reflects in the type of people you frequent with and the amount of shit you take on. When you think this way the opinions of others will start to manifest quicker than your own. Try to remember that you are not your surroundings nor your past traumas, you are who you SAY you are, you are who you make yourself out to be, you are the SOLE creator of you. Remember who you are and if you can’t, become who you want to be, you have the ability to do all things. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

Doing the best I can to stay afloat, while still trying to cope. 

See the ways of this world are more twisted than ever. Men do women wrong and girls hustle men because they think it’s clever.

No one rides their own wave, instead they slow walk on a path that was already paved.

They make it seem like being your own person is hard, as if you wasn’t made with your OWN body parts. Instead we scroll on a digital screen and paint our dreams based off of what we see.

We only see the lives that people wanna show us, which in turn can only switch our focus.

I’m sinking in this crazy world we live in, everyone’s out to get rich and living with no reason. 

TWISTED THOUGHTS

True love never dies 

True love never lies

True love won’t make you cry nor try to pull a wool over your eyes. 

True love supports no matter the sorts.  True love never leads you astray but true love can only be accessed in one way. 

One has to search within themselves to figure out what love is and how it gives. 

It may take a lifetime but true love will wait. True is patient and always willing to participate,

if it’s not true love then it could only be pure hate. 

See there is no in between, either you truly love me for me or you don’t because true love will let you be free but fake love won’t.

Comfort Zone

Your comfort zone is the place where you feel the most comfortable in your thoughts, opinions and actions. Your comfort zone is also the place where your doubts and insecurities lie comfortably. As human beings we can easily get caught up in our comfort zones and become zombies to reality, but we must remember that our comfort zones don’t have enough room for our progress, nor is it a place where we can thrive. Your comfort zone is solely a place where you can hide from reality. In order to stray away from being stuck in our comfort zones we have to place ourselves in situations that allow us to progress and learn as individuals. If we don’t do it ourselves, life will. Put matters into your own hands and take yourself out of your comfort zone before life abruptly does it for you. It won’t be easy to leave your comfort zone but in order to actually be comfortable with yourself from the outside looking in, you must. 

“New Year, New Baggage”

It’s a new year and a new decade but you should still be the same you, just with less baggage. To say “new year, new me” indicates that you haven’t been your true self or you’re transitioning into a “new” person, when in reality you just don’t know who you are. Throughout the years we meet people and we take on their emotional baggage, their baggage mixed with our baggage begins to weigh us down without notice and the longer we hold on the heavier the load gets. As the years go by we take on more and more emotionally damaged people because that’s what you attract when you’re accustomed to emotional damage. In the end you realize that you really haven’t changed you’ve just taken on more dead weight than you could handle, which in turn has caused you to forget who you really are. This year leave the faulty resolutions behind and set realistic goals for yourself for each day, week, and month. Allow yourself room to make mistakes and learn from the mistakes you make. Take time with yourself this year even if that means being selfish, you’ll never be able to attract and hold on to the things you desire in life if you continue to carry too much baggage.