Stepping Stones

Just when you thought things were going good for you, just when you thought you were finally getting what you prayed for, what you were patient and diligent for, but something or someone comes in a swoops all of those anticipative feelings away and you feel like you’re back at square 1. Im not sure about y’all but I feel like this happens to me very often, and I begin to second guess all the decisions that I’ve made that lead up to me feeling that way. But before I can get in that depressive state where I tell myself nothings going right and everything is wrong I have to remind myself that anything worth standing on takes time to build. The obstacles in the way just make way for a stronger testimony. If you think about it, nobody is going to want to hear someone’s story that has been handed everything, I don’t want to hear about someone always getting what they want, I want to hear the stories of people who worked for what they got, who went through hell and back and still conquered. Those are the stories that give me hope and remind me that I’m going through my own testimony as we well. So don’t look at your obstacles as something holding you back, instead realize that the rejections that you’ll receive will be part of the reason why you’ll eventually receive your blessings.

LOVE

Everyone’s favorite subject “love”. I don’t have a thorough definition for love myself because I’m still in the process of loving, but I do believe I have truly known it once. I have known love once because I’ve went through all the phases with that particular love, including grief, which some would say is the final act of love. I agree with that. I believe that we have many loves in life and they all continue throughout our lives until we have had that final act of grief. I think we fall short of love many times because we don’t allow people to be themselves nor do we know ourselves enough to love properly. Love is an active thing, meaning it is always moving, it is never stagnant therefore, we must grow through love or we will miss out on its true nature. Once we get comfortable with “love” it ceases to be its true form, which leads us to replace it with other things such as lust, hate, or jealousy.  But each love is different, some love is only for a season, some love is for a lifetime, but it is still love, it should still exist in your heart.  We shouldn’t take the bad experiences we have had with love and shift them into different feelings just because that particular love is no longer progressing. In order to understand that and recognize love when it comes we must first love ourselves in every aspect of our lives. I know that there are going to be times when we aren’t feeling ourselves or we may be going through a struggle, but we still must love our selves because we are growing. You’ll never be able to love properly if you think love is perfect because it’s not, love feels like shit sometimes but when love is done right it’s one of the best feelings in the world, no drug could ever compare to the high that love gives you. Love trumps all things and love wins every time. I’m still learning myself, so I know I don’t possess all the answers but what I can tell you from experience is; even though the love that I knew isn’t growing anymore it still lives inside of me, it helps me get through my hard times and it has made me who I am today. I try to do everything with love because I know that those who possess love in their hearts will feel me and for those who don't, I have hope that one day they will. 

To be continued....

Divine Order

I no longer live my life with the fear of not knowing because I’ve given my all to a foreseeing God. I think we fail to realize that our steps are ordered, we have all been placed here to do exactly what we are doing. God knew that I was going to wake up at 4 this morning and write; just like he knew that Ermias Asghedom was going to ascend to heaven and change all of our lives for the greater good. It’s about the impact; it’s about trusting and believing in Him. Let me explain myself a little more before I get too deep... I consider myself a Christian yes, but I do not have the same exact values as “most” Christians do, I value self overall. I believe that if you are your best self you can help others... assuming that if you are not your best self you shouldn’t be giving lessons to other people.. I admit that you can be an example but you shouldn’t be telling others what to do... now back to the main point. Our steps are ordered meaning; if we give our lives to God the circumstances around us won’t have an immoderate affect on our purposeful lives. Every one of us has a purpose with God, whether your purpose has a minute or an immense impact, it’s still a part of Gods systematic plan. I say this a lot but, we see things and we get discouraged, that discouragement shifts our whole being, it opens up a pathway for doubt, loneliness, and unhappiness. Yet, if we would have just given whatever it was that made us feel that discomfort to God, it would have been handled way before our being shifted. Like I said our steps are ordered... so why not give all your problems to someone who knows the best solution before you do? 

Sustenance

Put your energy into people and things that reciprocate energy back. Your soul is alive therefore it needs nourishment just like our bodies. We must feed our souls with good things; love, kindness, joy etc. Stop wasting your time trying to figure out people and why they are the way they are. Stop wasting your time trying to figure out why something that you want isn’t working out for you. I’m not saying that you must give up on people or the things you “think” you want in life, but sometimes moving on can help you realize that you’re either doing the right thing or it’s been wrong all along. Therefore, move on to something different and try new things if you notice your energy is being depleted. You are your best advocate for yourself and if you’re not at your best how can you represent your true self.

Take a hike with me

Speak light unto darkness so that your spirit never wearies. Allow your light to shine through whatever journey your feet take you. Don’t be discouraged by what you see but listen and take note to what you feel. Understand your feelings and listen to them, remember them so that you never forget what made you feel that way. Understand it and move on from it a better person with lessons for the next. We can all improve each other if we speak of our journeys with one another, not one mans path is the same but when you cross paths you will create a trail. 

Time

What is your concept of time? Is time relevant to you? To me, time is the way you look, how you carry yourself, the way you act. We have been given time to put pressures on ourselves, but time isn’t really real. Time is just a figment of your own imagination. Each and every day is exactly the same; you just do different things on each day. So in reality time is you and what you do with your energy. The energy you put out either adds to your "time" or it takes away from your "time".

ME

What you think is what you see, what you see is what you feel. Everything that plays out in your life comes from within. Our minds are pure; our minds are golden, so why should we corrupt them with ill thoughts? Just a little food for thought, my name is Micah Baham and I'm on a journey to find the true meaning of self, so I decided to start a blog so whoever wants to read it or is fascinated by what I'm doing is welcome to come along this journey with me. I've been through a lot in my life but I'm sure if you stick with my blog you'll find out more about me. I am very opinionated so if you are sensitive then don't come here, but I will accept those who are sensitive and opinionated as well, I love some good old feedback. So yeah, welcome I'm happy for you to come along this journey with me!